Sucidal, Anyone?

Listen to this: I have a presentation in Introduction to Sociolinguistics on Monday and only yesterday I found out that I was supposed to go to see the professor last week to discuss it. Maja had no idea either. Really odd since we haven't missed any class. When did she say that and to whom... I do not know. Then Maja asked her if we could send the concept by e-mail and she said we could, although I can't see what the use is since there's no time to fix anything. Ah, the joys of studying in Croatia... Trust me, this is just one example and not even remotely the worst one. Well whatever. I don't really care about the grade I get, I just wanna get it over with. I got a C on a partial in that boring subject that I had to take basically against my will so fuck it. Actually, a lot of people failed so a C was quite good. Especially considering the fact that I didn't understand half of the questions. It was like WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN??! on 8 out of 10 questions. Oh well...
So tonight is the Eurosong finals. Croatia didn't make it to the finals so I'm not sure if I'm gonna watch it. Maybe for the laughs. DJ Bobo didn't make it either. LMAO Poor guy. He should've stayed under whatever rock he's been hiding since '96. I don't understand why can't certain people realise that their time has passed. I mean, if one was a European dance star in the 90s, then he/she most certainly shouldn't try to have his/her comeback in 2007. But maybe that's just me.
I was watching Everwood today. (Yeah, I watch it. Is that a surprise? Don't you people know me by now? Name the worst crap there is on TV and I'll most likely be its biggest if not the only fan.) Anyway... That Reid character tried to kill himself but they saved him blah blah blah and it got me to thinking how people always take someone's suicide so personally. Like when I was considering it and once tried it (unsuccessfully, obviously) it was all about how they would miss me and how they would feel and stuff like that. Well, what about how I felt? Do people really think that what goes through one's head when he's about to kill himself is what that would do to other people? Sometimes all you can think about is getting out, ending it, making it stop. Making what stop? Everything. Honestly, I didn't think all that much about the people I was gonna leave behind (and it was a small number of people, much as it would be today). If anything, I thought I would make their lives easier. Seriously. When I was feeling depressed and unable to deal with life, I thought I would release everyone of the burden if I simply ceased to exist. So it's not like one is being selfish when committing suicide - often it is just the opposite.