Diary Of Krk VI

I'm sitting outside, sipping my coffee and listening to Branimir practicing his saxophone. I'm not mad about its sound but I don't mind. There's some wind so it's quite enjoyable, it's not impossibly hot as it was these last few days. I should be studying but I just don't feel like it. This is not that kind of a day. I should do something about my nails, both hands and feet. I could cut someone's throat with them.
No one got my postcards yet and I've sent them two days ago. Oh, the island business...
There's no one here these days but tomorrow people are coming. I hope it won't be too busy because Štefica is not here, she went to Germany to see her boyfriend and she practically runs the whole place herself so she's irreplaceable.
I've got nothing else to say.

Diary Of Krk V

It's 7pm and there goes another day in Šilo. The greatest excitement of the last two days would be Mirza Džomba (the famous handball player) at the cafe. Apparently he has a house here so he comes for a beer or something with his friends. The first time I saw him my hands were shaking like crazy but I'm used to him now. He seems nice, really, and calls me šefice (boss). It's really funny. I'm terrified with the thought of spilling something on him.
Otherwise, it's been quite quiet here, not much to do, basically no one to dive. And that of course means that the hot instructor isn't here either. I know, I know, he's married but at least he's something nice to look at. No second thoughts. Well, I have a lots of ideas of what I would do with him but I'm not gonna be that girl, you know what I mean.
Tomorrow is Davor's birthday. I mustn't forget to send him an SMS. I don't know if he's in Vrsar or Darda but it doesn't matter really.
Suddenly I'm having a death wish. Well, not exactly a death wish but I would like to be in love. I don't want a boyfriend but would like to be hopelessly in love with someone out of reach. Actually, a crush would do too. Unfortunately, my options here are beyond limited. The one I noticed is married (why, God, why?!!) and the others are old or ugly and/or married too. It's sad really. I'm worse than Bridget. Oh no, am I turning into Muriel again?!!

P.S. I'm continuing right away. It's not that I have anything to say really, but you know how much I love writing, even if it's only rubbish. I'm listening to U2's With Or Without You and I wish I had someone to share it with. Er, it seems the sea and the summer are starting to get to me. Oh boy, you know how stupid I can get when I get like this.
I've sent postcards to Sonja, Mare, Nika, Buba and Momo. Not to mum and dad 'cause I'm sending a parcel to Vaki tomorrow and I've put a letter in it.
I'm sleepy but I don't know, suddenly sleeping seems like a waste of time, like there'll be plenty of time to sleep, like I should live now. But the thing is, I'm also enjoying my time alone.
Have I told you about the two brothers, Rene and Patrick? No? I don't know. Anyhow, they're from Austria, they come here for the summer for years and I got to know them 'cause they come to Neptun at least once a day. Rene is a chef and I have no idea what does Patrick do. So Rene kept promising to bring me a chocolate croissant for breakfast and then he would get up too late or would forget or whatever. But today he came with the box of cookies and cakes. Isn't that sweet? I mean, to do that for someone you barely know, someone you'll probably never see again after this summer.
I don't know, so far it seems people are so nice here, for no apparent reason. I'm not lik ethat. I try to be kind when I'm at work but it still feels like a conscious effort. Sometimes my smile comes naturally but most of the time I need to remind myself to put it on. It's probably because I'm not a people person. I'm quite the opposite. But it's getting easier.
I don't know what I'm gonna do tonight. I should sleep. I should shave my legs and my bikini zone so then I might get some sun tomorrow morning but I'm feeling kind of lazy, the chances are I'm gonna donothing of the above but just wander around, no rhyme or reason. Oh, and I've got some laundry to do. That should be my priority, not thinking about how I would like to have a crush because I really don't need it, not here, anyway. Ok, I should really wrap this up. I'm only wasting paper.

Diary Of Krk IV

I still haven't got the chance to rest properly. I'm lying down now and kind of watching a football match (Australia - Italy).
So listen to this. Last night Boris (my boss) gave me 100€ for the few days I've worked when I came and for this weekend because I've worked a bit more than normally. And he told me I did well. OK. But then today Branimir called me and asked how did I do. I said I made it and then he says Boris told him that I have snapped. I don't get it. sure, I was beyond tired but I did m yjob. And I don't get it, if he thought I was crap, then why say I did well??!!! I guess everyone here lies to each other every now and then.

Diary Of Krk III

It's 5.15pm and I'm all alone in the kitchen of our little apartment. Jelena should return later tonight though. If you're wondering how I am, I'm tired, beyond tired. I've worked my ass off these last two days because J isn't here so I'm sort of filling in for her and it's been really busy. Right now I'm resting but there's a good chance I'll need to go back tonight or, Heaven forbid, even sooner.
I'm meeting new people on daily basis and get this, there's this guy (Vanja) who thinks I'm cheerful! It's insane! I am the queen of down!
Newsflash on that hot instructor: he's back to ZG, he went home on the very same day he came. But when he was leaving he came in to say goodbye and I told him to say hi to his family. I still find it hard to believe he's got a wife. He's too young and too hot to be married! Oh well, the story of my life.
I got a grip on that 2nd crush and I sort of don't know what was I thinking. The summer night by the sea got to me, I guess. I've come to my senses now.
Mare called today, Patrik is beginning to walk. I can't believe I'm gonna miss it. He'll be so big when I come back, he's gonna be a different child.
So, what do you think, am I gonna have a summer romance here? Yeah, I don't think so either. I'm too busy and it's only gonna get busier, everyone claims.
Oh boy, do my feet hurt!!!! I haven't worked this hard since... well, I've never worked this hard. I need to try to rest a bit now. I'll have my ice cream and lie down for a while.

Diary Of Krk II

It's basically still the same day, only it's 3.20 in the morning. I recently finished my shift. It wasn't exhausting, it's just that I had to stay for so long.
There's this Slovenian guy that wanted to get drunk or something. He's a friend of my boss' brother so he can dictate the terms. But oh, he's really nice, a bit too fat and a bit too blond to be good looking but strangely enough, I sort of found him sexy tonight. It was really really weird. He kept staring at me and, well, I kinda stared back. HOWEVER, he's married with two children (and only twenty eight). And there was this funny moment when he asked: And where does Kristina sleep? as if he was to, well, join me (I almost screamed "YES!"). But then Ivana (my boss' wife) and Robert (his brother) reminded him that he should be worrying about where Barbara sleeps (that's this guy's wife). Of course, it's not like he'd actually come to sleep with me but it was quite flattering to hear that there are men out there who'd consider it.
Sure, Branimir (mine and Jelena's room-mate) keeps repeating how pretty I am but I think it's only to make me feel better because I've been pretty sad these last few days. And besides, he's around forty. You know that men that old are bellow my horizon.
But there was this unbeliveably sexy diving instructor here last week. He's from our capital and he came with a group of divers. He's young and attractive (to me, at least) so I totally had a little crush, especially 'cause he would always give me a little smile or a wink or would say See ya! and stuff like that so I just couldn't keep my eyes off of him. Anyway, he was leaving the other day and he came to say goodbye (although he'll be back more than once during the summer) and he shook my hand and KISSED ME ON BOTH CHEEKS!!!!! (To be fair, he did the same with Jelena and Štefica - another girl that works with us but also with the divers.) Naturally, to be true to myself, I went straight to 7th heaven just to find out a bit later from Jelena that he's MARRIED and his wife is PREGNANT! Well, of course he is! The first guy I liked in years and then that. That's just my luck. And I need to stop having crushes on married men!

P.S. It's 12.45pm, I'm resting and watching Everwood. My shift starts at 3 and I'm expecting it to be very hard today because there are lots of people in the center for the weekend.
But guess who's back?! Yes, the sexy instructor. I need to keep reminding myself that he's MARRIED!!!!! Hey, listen to me! I'm acting as if it would make any difference if he was single. He's one of those guys that I always fall for in an instant but who never really notice me at all. Guys like the one last night notice me but that's not good, right?
Anyway, since I'm not really looking for anyone right now, it's even better this way. I just need to be firm and reject everyone. Assuming there would be anyone with certain ideas. And there probably won't be.