It's funny how I came expecting lulz with Fat!Jensen. Instead...
“You said you don’t have sex. Why not?”
This time it’s Jared asking the question, and Jensen wants to stab himself in the eye for letting that fact slip out. Because the last person he wants to discuss his unfortunate celibacy with is Jared.
But Jared just waits for a response.
Jensen snorts derisively. “It’s not like I can just decide to have sex.” He was hoping it would come out bitter but instead it sounds pathetic.
Thank god for Danny, who takes pity on him and makes a joke. “Well, for a hundred and fifty grand you can apparently pay Chad to Vaseline up and—”
Jensen barks out a laugh and holds up a hand. “Don’t even finish that sentence, please.”
“You want to know what I think?” Jared’s voice is low and clear over the laughter of the group.
Jensen’s internal response flip-flops between not particularly and more than anything in the whole wide world.
“I think you’re being unfairly judged as sexually undesirable. I think someone is making you feel invisible. Someone is trying to convince you that you’re unworthy of physical affection. That you’re not sexy, or maybe even unlovable.”
All of those things ring pretty true to Jensen.
And then Jared finishes with, “And I’m pretty sure that person is you.”
You're damn right I broke down and cried.
“You said you don’t have sex. Why not?”
This time it’s Jared asking the question, and Jensen wants to stab himself in the eye for letting that fact slip out. Because the last person he wants to discuss his unfortunate celibacy with is Jared.
But Jared just waits for a response.
Jensen snorts derisively. “It’s not like I can just decide to have sex.” He was hoping it would come out bitter but instead it sounds pathetic.
Thank god for Danny, who takes pity on him and makes a joke. “Well, for a hundred and fifty grand you can apparently pay Chad to Vaseline up and—”
Jensen barks out a laugh and holds up a hand. “Don’t even finish that sentence, please.”
“You want to know what I think?” Jared’s voice is low and clear over the laughter of the group.
Jensen’s internal response flip-flops between not particularly and more than anything in the whole wide world.
“I think you’re being unfairly judged as sexually undesirable. I think someone is making you feel invisible. Someone is trying to convince you that you’re unworthy of physical affection. That you’re not sexy, or maybe even unlovable.”
All of those things ring pretty true to Jensen.
And then Jared finishes with, “And I’m pretty sure that person is you.”
You're damn right I broke down and cried.
Lost and Found
5 spoke back:
Hmmmm
wow
yeah, OK, this is me too. *rolls eyes*
Eye opening fanfic, who knew? I get that a lot. It's just too much sometimes.
...and you're back. I'm glad.
that is a powerful piece
It was. It raised A LOT of questions too, inspired discussions and even flame wars, if you can imagine that.
Sometimes people just don't know how to accept and let go.
*bites into a donut*
Ergo, therapy.
Exactly.
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