Bribe

Motherfucker! Fuck! Fuck! Fucking fuck!
I just got the Croatian version of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows to complete my collection. But isn't that something she wanted?, some of you might ask. Yes, dammit. That's why I'm so bloody angry. My sister bought it. One cannot take that book in one's hands and not smile. It's undoable. How do I hate her now? How?! Motherfucker.
And I was doing such a wonderful job of ignoring/hating her today. See, last night she had this huge scene with my mother, talking about this incident, crying crocodile tears, yelling about her sufferings and what not. I was in the living room during that time, acting like it had absolutely nothing to do with me. I said what I had to say and I was not going to discuss it any more. But then today my sister thought that we were OK because she talked to mother. And it wasn't, not from where I was standing. So she tried to crack a joke that I "didn't hear". A bit later she asked me to find her the episode of "Gilmore Girls" she had missed last week. I murmured "OK" and I did find it and started downloading it. So in the afternoon, as it was downloading, I turned the TV on to see Monty Python's "Holy Grail". Just as it was beginning, I saw MSN window popping up. Maja. Asking me about Geoffrey Chaucer. So I press PAUSE on the DVD and get to the computer to find her the link with the modern translation of it. And just then my sister comes in and throws tantrum because I can't be watching TV and at the computer at the same time because what would she do then. And I tell her I was downloading her "Gilmore Girls" and just replying to Maja about some Uni stuff and she starts yelling about pulling out the computer plug be-

(Took a pause to tie a bow on the new top she just bought and is trying on now and listen to this comment: Are you braiding a braid or tying a bow? because I was apparently too slow. Can you say bitch?)

I lost a thought. Anyway, I turned the computer off and watched the movie. I also stopped downloading her show and wasn't gonna download it at all since she was such a bitch.
And then she bought me the book. And "Gilmore Girls" have downloaded. Goddammit! Motherfucker! Fuck! Fuck! Fucketty fuck!

Random Blabber

Random thought: Jason Bourne makes German language sexy. Jason Bourne makes Russian language sexy.

I have a new layout. I'm not particularly happy with it but I needed a change.

Good news about Beowulf. It turns out I don't actually have to read the epic itself but only the summary. Phew. Cuz those lines were killing me, let me tell you that.

I asked kind people to help me find a program for extracting RAR files today. Seriously, if someone told me a year ago I would be looking for computer programs today... A lot happens in a year, no? And we learn every day.

Nic shared this link with us today. For those of you too lazy or too uninterested to click it, J.K. Rowling has told the world that Dumbledore was gay. I'm not sure I needed to know that. I keep picturing him and Snape... I will not finish this sentence. I'm just gonna leave you with that thought.

It's Raining Movies

It's way too early in the morning, 8:02. Why am I up? You tell me. I'm also freezing my ass off. Three days ago it was summer and yesterday we had the heat on. Not to mention the rain, the endless boring rain.
I saw "The Prestige" last night. I really liked it. Of course, Hugh Jackman stars in it so I might be biased. Just kidding, that's not it. It's really good, the story is interesting and it pulls you in and you want to know why and how. It really is like revealing a trick. Although I can't say I'm sure I got it all. I believe I'll have to see it again some time. Like with "12 Monkeys". The first time I saw I was like WTF??! but by the third time I totally got it. Slow much? I know. Anyway, the funny thing with "The Prestige" is that I actually like Christian Bale and I was never a fan. I think "American Psycho" screwed up with my head. That and "Equilibrium". I just didn't like him (except for the "Empire of the Sun" but he was a kid then). But now... Now I'm a fan. He was great and now I've added "Batman Begins" to my to see list. David Bowie played Nikola Tesla, as you might know. What you might not know is that Tesla was born in Croatia so all I could focus on when Bowie spoke was the accent and how well did he get it. I'm weird like that.
My sister saw "Transamerica" with bf but is not thrilled with it. I haven't seen it yet but I'm not sure if I want to be bothered with a heavy drama. It's enough to be bothered with the grammar of old Slavic language.

Speaking of movies, here's something funny. If you're a Harry Potter slash stand up comedy fan.

From Hell

No, no. This is not a post about a movie. Hell is also known as my life right ~~> now. I know, I know, I have no one to blame but myself. I messed up with failing a few exams, with not taking a few exams and now I am where I am. In hell. I have so much work to do and so little will power to do the work. I'm having the hardest time making, forcing myself to study. Anyway, I've actually made my peace with having to repeat this year (whatcha gonna do, right?) and so have my parents. I will, nonetheless, try to pass as many exams as possible during this month and then I'll be able to listen to some classes from the second year along with taking the exams I'll have left from the first year so when I finally get to the second year, I'll have a job a bit easier.
So much about the reality of my days.

<~~ In the mean time, I've been having some seriously weird dreams. A few nights ago I dreamt I was in our garden fighting someone with a wand! Yeah, I know, too much Harry Potter. Anyway, I couldn't remember any of the spells except for the Expelliarmus and Sectumsempra and I didn't wanna do the latter cuz it's Dark Arts curse and I figured I was better than that. Luckily, I manged to disarm my opponent (who ever it was) and save myself.

On another night I dreamt I ~~> went to Canada. By plane. I don't remember the flight, but I was staying in some house and after living there for some time, I one day came to the living room just to find some guy and a girl in bed doing it. I think the guy lived there too. So I went out to the garden and the guy came after me asking me if I was mad. I said I wasn't mad and he asked why I left the house then. THEY WERE HAVING SEX IN THE LIVING ROOM!

<~~ And then, last night, I dreamt about my sister getting married and I was supposed to do her hair but nothing would please her. DUH!

I have ~~> also been daydreaming like a crazy person in the last two or three days about a trip to Greece that may or may not take place in about 8 months or so where I would meet my online sisters but there are so many things working against me that it's 99% sure it is never gonna happen. Another thing I've been dreaming about is a job I wouldn't know how to do in a non-existing online firm.

All right, call in the people in the white coats - I'm all set to go! Just let me have my last supper, I'm in the middle of it!

Tuesday Nothings

I went to see Harry Potter again last night. Sister and bf were going so I kinda tagged along. So my sister says she's paying for the tickets and I get in the line... well, there was only one person in front of me, so I suppose I get in the pair and this woman gets into some kind of a mix-up with a ticket she won but it wasn't for yesterday but for today and she leaves and somehow I end up with a free ticket. So yaay. Well, my sister ends up paying for two instead of three tickets. This kinda things never happen to me so I was really excited about it. And the crowd was much smaller so the entire experience of watching the movie was much more enjoyable than the first time. Also, this time my company didn't abandon me in the theatre like the last time so I had my sister to comment with. (I'm not an annoying commenter - I only do it a few times and always as quiet as possible). So at the beginning of the movie when harry is fighting of dementors I say: "Didn't he grow up?" and my sister, God bless her, says: "Mhm. He's fine..." Good., So it's not just me then. And this time I was prepared for the sweating scenes and I have to say, they were even better! Uwwwkay, enough with the sick.
Soo... Pizza party on Saturday. Dunno. There should be more people than at the BBQ party and you know me - crowd-a-phobic. Like this Saturday when there were also this unknown people and I basically kept my mouth shut the whole time. And then this girl asks me why I have singled myself out. Uhm... cuz I don't know half of these people... So this Saturday some of this people should come too and it's just... I don't know... overwhelming. I mean, Trap was with his bf and sister and almost didn't say a word to me. This other girl had three friends with her that I have never seen in my life and I just can't deal with unknown people. And it's not like I have some new clothes to wear. Anyway, Saturday is days away.

Monday Blabber

I'm still not over HP being over. It's so sad. Saying goodbye usually is. Yes, I know there are still two movies to be made but no more books... *tearing up* But I'll try not to talk about it anymore. Though I have started re-reading it, of course.
I'm going to the library soon. Stoopid old Cro lit. Soooo boring. Especially after reading Harry Potter. lol
It's still hot but not as the last few days. I bought a lovely orange dress, can't wait to wear it.
I played rummy with parents last night. I lost. lol
Fox got all weird asking me why I was avoiding him. Like, every time he gets online to greet me, I disappear. Yeah! It's all cuz of him cuz he is the ecntre of my life. Jeeez. Some people... They're organizing pizza-making-party now. The same BBQ crowd. Well, if 6 people is a crowd. Dunno if I'll go. Cuz truth to be told, I was kinda avoiding talking to him. He gets on my nerves sometimes. Just don't tell him, k? lol

The photos for the new ID are hideous! My hair is absolutely insane on them but what can I do? Well obviously, I could have taken a new picture but I didn't feel like it. I don't need the ID all that often anyway.
Well, this was one hell of a random blabber. That is all.

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU DON'T WANT THE BOOK TO BE RUINED FOR YOU - THERE ARE SPOILERS BELOW THE PICTURE OF THE COVER.
There, you have been warned. I am so glad I haven't turned my computer on today because as soon as I did, there it was - the title that reveals the end! How can people be so incredibly cruel, I do not know. Not that I won't do the exact same thing and in much greater detail but at least I warned you. It took me about 16 hours with breaks to eat and go to bathroom, from 10am till 2am, to finish it but I did it. Once again:
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I cried my eyes out. I can't even count the tissues. All the time I had the feeling I was saying goodbye to all of the characters that I got to know and love through the years. Probably because I was. Especially towards the end when so many of them showed up for he final battle, like Oliver Wood, Angelina Johnson and others. Then Krum at Bill and Fleur's wedding, and Percy who came and admitted he was a bloody fool... But I rush ahead of myself.
I was shocked with the first death because it came so soon and because it was Hedwig. I never would have thought J.K. would kill his owl. It didn't make me cry though. Nor did George's loss of ear make me cry. It did make me laugh when he said "'Ear, 'ear!" after Harry gave his speech. The first time I teared up was when Hermione accidentally broke Harry's wand. His trusty wand! A piece of my heart broke with it. I couldn't believe he was left unprotected, unarmed... And above all, Ron has deserted him! That was so wrong and I expected Ron to die because of this betrayal. Then later he returned and saved Harry's life and got the sword of Godryc Gryffindor so I guess he made amends.
The first time I actually cried out loud, so much that I had to go wash my face so I could see the letters, was when Dobby died. That brave unselfish elf, who never did anything but give his best to help Harry, finally laid his life for "Harry Potter Sir". And as Harry was digging a grave for his loyal friend, I cried. Poor poor Dobby... He will be remembered.
I know all I do is write about the deaths but they made me cry. I cried the most when Fred was killed. I was truly shocked. I honestly believed the Weasley children would not be harmed. Clearly, I was wrong. But I feared for Mrs. Weasley's life when she fought Bellatrix at the end. I was so relieved when Harry came to the rescue.
Snape... What to say? To find out at the end that all this time he indeed was on Dumbledore's side... I don't know what to think about that. Nor about the revelation of his and Lily's childhood friendship. Does the fact that all he ever tried to do was to protect Lily's son redeem him? I don't know. Harry naming his son after him says it does. Must I say that he married Ginny? And on that note, Ron and Hermione also got married.
Lupin and Tonks got a baby boy just to die in the final battle. Again, tears. That shook me. It reminded me so much of Harry and his parents. Although it's a bit odd how Lupin's death wasn't even described, it only said that his and Tonks's body was in the Great Hall with the others. After all, he was an important character. But it was sweet when little Ted was born, Remus asked Harry to be his Godfather. That was amazing and so sad at the same time. At least he'll never be unloved, like Harry, Snape and Voldemort who all thought of Hogwarts as their only home. I'm wondering though whether Ted has inherited his father's condition...
When Harry was going through Snape's memories and saw Dumbledore saying that the boy had to die and that he had to be killed by Voldemort, I put down the book and almost didn't read anymore. Then I swallowed my tears and kept going. Luckily, because all is well that ends well.
Neville was such a wonderful surprise, fighting a lonely battle in the Hogwarts when there was no one left there but him, so brave that even his grandma was proud of him for once and told him he was his parents' son. I cried a little there too. Finally he cut Nagini's head off, so yaay Neville!
Some might argue that Voldemort's death was anticlimactic. In a way, yes. Using a spell that backfired one more time maybe wasn't as spectacular as it was expected but I actually loved it. When Harry used Expelliarmus, his "signature spell", as they call it, he once again proved he is a hero with the righteous heart. And as I see it, in the end what really killed Voldemort wasn't a backfired spell or Harry's skill but everything that Harry is, the sum of the love he was given by his parents, his friends, their faith in him and above all, his faith in himself and in believing that what he is doing was the right thing.
And maybe my favourite moment in the whole book is when Harry takes charge in Bill and Fleur's cottage. He's proud, determined, grown up - he's ready! and he proves it when the time comes.
And now it's all over, there will be no more and it feels like saying goodbye to a friend. J.K. Rowling, hats off to you and thank you for giving us this magical tale.
Goodbye, Harry Potter!


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Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - Review (kinda)

Holy motherfucking shit! Have you seen those close ups of Harry's neck and arms in bed??! Veiny! Sweaty! Oh. My. God. The boy is all grown up now, that's for sure. (He is 18, right? I'm not being a disgusting paedophile here, right?)

Anyway, it was definitely the best HP movie so far. Yes, they have butchered the book as they tend to do but they did it quite intelligently so I didn't mind. The story was coherent and it wasn't boring for a second. I loved Luna although she was somewhat more gentle than I'd expected. In the book she has a bit more attitude, I think. But lovely nevertheless. I really didn't like how they made it like Cho had betrayed Dumbledore's Army. That's just wrong. Again, I understand some compromises had to be done. I wonder what will happen with Ginny in the next movie. I mean, she still looks like a child and is supposed to be Harry's gf in the next part. It so won't work unless she grows up quickly because Harry is so grown up... mmmmm... tossing and turning and sweating and moaning... uhm... where was I? Oh yeah, I'm "reviewing" the movie, not my paedophilic fantasies. So... Dumbledore - I'm still missing the late one. This one just lacks emotions or something. Umbridge's costumes were absolutely amazing, just like I have been picturing them. And Imelda Staunton is IMHO a very good choice for the part. I hate Helena Bonham Carter though. Not that I think she's bad for the part, I just hate her in general, lol.
DIGRESSION: Mom just brought papers home and the first thing I see on the covers is "At midnight the answer: Who dies?". I FUCKING KNEW IT! Bastards will ruin Harry Potter for me! There will be spoilers all over the place. I could start crying right now. I hate the stupid world! Why, WHY would everyone want to ruin everything with spoilers? Fucking journalists and stupid people on the Internet!
Back to the movie. Snape was just as scary as in the first movie but maybe he's pushed it a bit too far. It wouldn't kill him to speak a lit-tle faster every now and then. The twins were cuter than usual - growing up suits these British kids, lol. Not Ron though, poor thing. Just unpretty. Too little McGonagall, too little Hagrid. The Ministry of Magic should have been much much brighter, I expected a golden glow. It was dark instead. WTF??! Voldemort... I don't know. He's just not scary. Never has been, IMO. That nose thing is just stupid. I don't know, he's just lame. Hermione is trying too hard, as always (I know I should say Emma Watson, but I won't). The testrals (sp??!) were awesome! Pretty much as I have imagined them! Especially the baby, so cute. Grawp is cuter than I expected too. I liked him. Almost no Malfoy jr. at all. Malfoy sr. instead - not that I mind, he's great, Jason Isaacs is hot (in real life, not with that hair).
I loved the moment when Dumbledore was fighting Voldemort and Harry curled on the floor. I wanted to take him in my arms and comfort him. Harry's soundless breakdown when Sirius died was a great moment too, with Lupin holding him...
A great movie, really. Go see it. Or don't, since I probably ruined it for you now.

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

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